Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Day is Done


While sifting through a hundred poems, I came across this. It is my favorite so far. If I were still at NYU, attending poetry workshops, I would bring this to class. It's by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow. 

The day is done, and the darkness
   Falls from the wings of Night,  
As a feather is wafted downward
   From an eagle in his flight.          

I see the lights of the village
   Gleam through the rain and the mist,  
And a feeling of sadness comes o'er me,
   That my soul cannot resist:     
  
A feeling of sadness and longing,
   That is not akin to pain,             
And resembles sorrow only
   As the mist resembles the rain.
  
Come, read to me some poem,
   Some simple and heartfelt lay,
That shall soothe this restless feeling,
   And banish the thoughts of day.

Not from the grand old masters,
   Not from the bards sublime,
Whose distant footsteps echo
   Through the corridors of Time.

For, like strains of martial music,
   Their mighty thoughts suggest
Life's endless toil and endeavor;
   And to-night I long for rest.
  
Read from some humbler poet,
   Whose songs gushed from his heart,
As showers from the clouds of summer,
   Or tears from the eyelids start;

Who, through long days of labor,
   And nights devoid of ease,
Still heard in his soul the music
   Of wonderful melodies.

Such songs have power to quiet
   The restless pulse of care,
And come like the benediction
   That follows after prayer.

Then read from the treasured volume
   The poem of thy choice,
And lend to the rhyme of the poet
   The beauty of thy voice.

And the night shall be filled with music
   And the cares that infest the day,
Shall fold their tents, like the Arabs,
   And as silently steal away.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Abduction

Listening to California Gurls and E.T. at work right now.
So amped!!!

Sunday, January 27, 2013

If I don't hurry

and clean our room, I'm pretty sure Drew will divorce me...

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

We just put our feet where they had to go

i've been thinking a lot and i realize that the reason why i always look back on J. with the most unique, wrenching gratitude and nostalgia and even a bit of yearning is because he was the only person who ever pursued me at my lowest point. the others started liking me before then--and they often stuck with me during the bad times--but J. was the only one who actually went after me in the thick of it. it's almost as if the melancholy drew him to me. the first time i ever watched Fight Club was with him at my bedside, and i didn't even mind that when he ate some of my salad, he chomped the lettuce so loudly.

once we walked through the night olives, the glow from the path lamps revealed our breaths. his nose was runny from the cold, and i saw the way it glistened--the transparent wateryness at his nostril and i wanted to reach over to dab at it gently with my gloved hand, the way i might have with little daniel: naturally, with a tenderness so absolute. a gesture that was genuine because it was automatic, without thought, only instinct.

i wondered if he was the one i could feel safe with. and then i realized that i had been vulnerable all along. openly so, and so easily--because he made it easy to be myself, to be honest about the hurt, that it was there and perhaps to stay.

Before/After

Celine: My grandmother, she was married to this man, and I always thought she had a very simple, uncomplicated love life. But she just confessed to me that she spent her whole life dreaming about another man she was always in love with. She just accepted her fate. It's so sad. 

Jessie: I guarantee you, it was better that way. If she'd ever got to know him, I'm sure he would have disappointed her eventually. 


Celine: How do you know? You don't know them. 


Jesse: Yeah, I know, I know. It's just, people have these romantic projections they put on everything. That's not based on any kind of reality. 

Sunday, January 13, 2013

A happy marriage

"A happy marriage is the union of
two good forgivers." 

--Ruth Bell Graham

Friday, January 4, 2013

New Year's Resolution #1

Stop ordering chicken with my lunch salad just for the sake of increasing protein intake. Despite my best and most heroic efforts to enjoy it, I have to stop myself from gagging with each chunk of bird consumed.