that made me happy today:
1. Chloe sitting on the toilet in the adjoining bathroom. Drew and I talking in bed. Suddenly out of nowhere, "Mama. Mamaaaaa?"
"Yes?"
"Mama 我在這裡."
"Yes I know you're there," I said and laughed. Something sweet about the way she felt the urge to tell me where she was when it was already perfectly obvious. Drew then told me that she had been quite random all day. Exclaiming "Ah Ma I love you!" before getting in the car. Asking "Ah Gong why is your stomach so fat?" in the elevator.
2. It still makes my heart smile every time she tells me to hold her hand. Like today, in the mall. Lately I've been experiencing some guilt and anxiety about the decreased amount of time I spend with her now that I'm mostly preoccupied with Lexi.
But then I think about how my own mom was absent for a large chunk of my childhood, and how I ended up being so affected by her anyway. And how proud I am of her and of the relationship we now share. I keep going back to this, that children are resilient when it comes to what their parents put them through.
3. When I went to kiss Chloe open-mouthed. I blew a breath inside and then she said, "I smell your smell," covering her mouth. I asked her what I smelled like. "Smelly," she said. But then she let me kiss her again.
