| | dear siblings of mine,
please know that i love you all so very much.
and i have been thinking about the three of you every day
i pray for you every night.
i am never without you
i carry the three of you with me
every moment, wherever i go...
rise up in the morning, on my way to school. listen to mike's cd, the tunes have "Save[d] Me From Myself."
soak up a lovely day at school, endless bouts of laughter with friends.
but i come home to an empty house, and so i walk the rooms... and open the drawers... and trace my fingers along the volumes on mike's bookshelf.
i read jeff's email, and i'm so happy
so happy, that i swear my insides are smiling along as well.
ann leaves.
afterschool, i come home and spend four hours on the bed hugging her pillow. i suppose some part of me thinks that just as the fluffy surface encased her scent, so i will be able to cling onto some part of her.
but soon the sadness subsides, because i realize that
(i love my dear siblings very much,
and) it is that love i have for you
that sustains me through all.
i carry your hearts with me.
"i carry it in my heart." |
